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…is my new favorite song. Finally have a good amount of Snow Patrol on iTunes. Love them.

Inception was amazing, for all of you that asked. I absolutely loved it. I ended up going alone because the girl I was supposed to go with had to cancel, but it was totally worth it. It’s one of those movies that makes you guess throughout the entire thing how it’s going to end… and then when it ends you’re just astounded. Another A++ for Leonardo DiCaprio, Joseph Gordon-Levitt, Ellen Page, and Tom Hardy. This movie has a fantastic cast. Go see it!

I worked with Troy tonight. It was a pretty good night. I love working with him, and I felt like I hadn’t talked to him forever. Hopefully he and Frank are going to come to the cactus tomorrow, since Nick’s probably going to bail and I think Britt already has. =/ If I have the chance to go, I want to. I love to dance.

My bank account is finally getting taken care of. I just hope they put all the money back in before my check is deposited on Tuesday — I really don’t want my entire check to go toward NSF charges. Argh. I hate being broke.

On a higher (well, maybe) note, I added cute DQ boy on Facebook tonight. We’ll see how that works out. I’m probably a little too hopeful, but that’s alright. I hate being single, especially since I’m terrible with guys. Greta tells me tonight that I should be way more confident because I’m “pretty, smart, funny, and really nice…. when you want to be… haha”. I said thanks, but guys obviously don’t think so. Her reply? “No offense, but the guys you usually like are arrogant jerks. Maybe it’s just the wrong guys.” Greta-1, Caity-0.

…say all there is to say. Sometimes your first scars won’t ever fade away.

I just spent the last two hours on the phone with Ashley. I miss her so much. We talked about everything; Luke leaving and how differently she’s handling it this time, Sebert and his family and fiance, Eric and Weeze and all my drama… I can’t wait to get back down to Tennessee. I’m driving down after work on Tuesday to stay with her for a little more than a week. She needs the company now that Luke is back overseas, and I need the vacation. I actually had a good conversation with Jamie the other day [Sebert's fiance's sister], so I think we might be good again. She might be coming down to TN for Ash’s birthday next weekend when I’m there. I hope it’s not too awkward.

So the semester is finally over, and I couldn’t be more happy to have three months without classes. I ended this semester with a 3.15 GPA, which I think is pretty good considering I worked full-time and did almost none of my Sociology homework. I really hated that class. I’m going to spend the summer working and drinking and going to concerts. I’m allowed to do that — I’m 21 and single. It’s wonderful. I have to find someone to go to the Dave Matthews show with me next month and John Mayer will be here in August. My parents are taking me to see Eric Clapton in July. I’m really excited about this summer. I’m going to start sticking to my diet and exercising routines so that I can wear a bikini by September. That’s my plan, anyway. If I’m going to be 21 and single, I should at least look good for the part, right? I let myself go over the holidays this year, and I really want to start feeling good about myself again. I hate being so self-conscious.

There has been some drama lately between my cousin and I and a guy, but I don’t think it’s worth risking mine and Weeze’s relationship for. We’re too close. We’ll just have to see where everything goes. I hate drama, and I’m going to do everything I can to get around it. It’s exhausting and we’re young and it shouldn’t be this hard. At least I know that now.

Now I’m alive, and my ghosts are gone. I’ve shed all the pain I’ve been holding on. The cure for a heart is to move along. It’s the end where I begin.

Just praying to a god that I don’t believe in.

Let’s catch up, shall we? I was going to use the “10 Things on a Tuesday” meme, but then I remembered it’s Monday. Ha. So, how about just a list of new things?

1. I am doing really, really well in all of my classes this semester. I’m proud of myself. My lowest grade is probably going to be in Sociology, and for as much as I hate that class, if I get a B-… I’ll just be happy to not ever have to set foot in that class again. I passed my Environmental Science class with an A and (so far) I have an A in my English comp class and Statistics. Statistics might average out to a B after finals, but I can live with that.
2. I’m still working full-time at Family Video. I’m really irritated with my job, and I hate working so many hours and trying to fit homework in, but I know there is no other way I can do it if I want to live on my own. I’m not irritated with my job so much as I’m irritated with my ‘assistant manager’. I’m not going to get into it, though, because it’s the same old argument. I have to deal, anyway, until I can find something else that will pay as much and work around my school schedule as well. Yeah, right.
3. I have been reading a lot this year, it seems. Maybe more than usual, maybe not. I guess my list doesn’t seem that long, but since I work AND go to school full-time, I think it’s a pretty good accomplishment to have read as much as I have for pleasure in the past four months. Right now, I’m reading House Rules by Jodi Picoult. It’s definitely eye-opening. This year, I’ve read:
   • The Last Song by Nicholas Sparks
   • The Lucky One by Nicholas Sparks
   • The Choice by Nicholas Sparks
   • The Art of Racing in the Rain by Garth Stein (AMAZING read!)
   • Dead and Gone by Charlaine Harris
   • A Touch of Dead by Charlaine Harris
   • Nightlight: A Parody by The Harvard Lampoon

   I know it doesn’t seem like much, but it is to me. And the list I have of things I want to read over the summer is about a mile long. Summer reading list includes:

   • The Weight of Silence by Heather Gudenkauf
   • Thanks for the Memories by Cecelia Ahern
   • Twenties Girl by Sophie Kinsella
   • The Almost Moon by Alice Sebold
   • The Absolutely True Diary of a Part-time Indian by Sherman Alexie
   • The Shack by William P. Young
   • The Lightening Thief by Rick Riordan
   • Lift by Kelly Corrigan

   There are many, many more. When I finish House Rules, I’ll probably start either Thanks for the Memories or The Weight of Silence. Those are the kinds of books I’ve been in the mood for. If anyone has any other suggestions, I’d be glad to hear them! Amber and I have been trading back and forth, and it seems like every time we leave campus together, we buy another book (or four). Haha.

4. Speaking of Amber, we’ve been spending a lot of time together this semester. We have a class together, and we eat lunch together every Tuesday and Thursday. Her personality definitely takes some getting used to (she’s just… opinionated? …always right?), but she’s really starting to be a good friend. She’s still my manager until January, though, so there are some things that are awkward sometimes. It’s nice to have a friend at school, though.
5. Relationship status: Still single. Can’t make up my damn mind as to whether or not I even WANT a boyfriend. It would be nice to have a guy to talk to sometimes, though. Well… one that’s not gay. Haha.
6. I bought a new car! Well, it’s used… But, it’s new to me! It’s a dark blue, 3-door (YES, it has 3 doors!),1999 Saturn with a sunroof. It’s not a manual, but no one can have everything. =] I miss driving my stick-shift, and sometimes I still reach for the clutch (not cool when I hit the break instead), but I really like my car. And it’s soooo much better on gas.
7. I’m 21! I don’t remember the last half of my birthday, but I know I had a lot of fun! Heh. It’s so nice to be able to buy alcohol and go to bars. It gives me a way to hang out with my friends, especially when that’s the only way it seems like I can get a group together to hang out. We all went to see Justin Moore at the 8 Seconds Saloon on Good Friday… That was a great show! We all rode the mechanical bull, and it was a lot of fun. We all got his autograph afterward, too! He’s pretty awesome. Weeze, Eric, and I are going back to the 8 Seconds on the 21st to see Saliva, and I’m really excited about that show.
8. The guys at Ft. Campbell are deploying the second week of May, and I’ve already made plans to go down by Ash. I’ll be down there for a week, over Memorial Day weekend and her birthday. I’m so excited! I miss her a lot. I think we’re also going to see Daughtry play in Nashville that weekend, so it should be a really good time. I can’t wait!

Now that I’ve completely talked (er… typed) your ear off, I think I’m going to wrap this up. As I say in every post, I really am going to try to blog more! I just need a fresh layout, and I need to redo the rest of my site. I know I spend most of my time outside during the spring/summer, when it’s warm, but I’ll have more time to blog after the semester’s over. We’ll see.

They say bad things happen for a reason… but, no wise word’s gonna stop the bleeding.

I honestly don’t have a good answer to that question. However, I also don’t know how to make myself stop thinking about the past and how things have changed; why they’ve changed.

Today would have been my two year wedding anniversary. I am more than ready for this year to be over.

In the past two weeks, things have gone from good to bad to worse to better and back again. I feel like I need a good New Year’s resolution… Or just a stiff drink. Any takers?